Planned Love

When I heard him say that, I couldn't help but smile. I looked at him with interest and said, "What? Do you mind? "    

"I'll ask you, just answer me." Sheng Yun glared at me and said coldly.    

"I'm just expressing my attitude towards human affairs. I might be different from the others, so I didn't specifically point out anything." I looked at him and said quietly, "When did you become so emotional?"    

He looked embarrassed by what I said, and after a long silence, he said slowly, "So when it's useful to you, it's a priceless jewel; when it's not, it's a worthless rock. "Xu Shubei, so your values are actually so realistic."    

I didn't think so. I just felt that love wasn't what I needed right now, so I didn't value it that much. Even if I know that I have feelings for Sheng Yun, that is only the realm of the heart.    

But I didn't explain. I just smiled and said to him, "I'll go get some water to wipe your face."    

I felt there was no need to explain, but in his eyes it was the equivalent of acquiescence.    

He ignored me for the next few days. We were in the same space, each doing our own thing. He was fully focused on recuperating, while I lay beside him in my free bed, each of us holding a book and maintaining a tacit silence.    

Every day, Tai Ziqian would deliver three meals a day on time, instantly telling us the current situation of Sheng Family.    

At the same time, Chen Mozhu, her mother, and their daughter also quickly seized over the high position in the Shengshi Group. In addition, they quickly called a meeting of the directors, abolishing many of the systems and procedures Sheng Yun originally set up, and even cleared out a group of middle and upper echelons that Sheng Yun had once entrusted with.    

Sheng Yun did his best to recuperate just so that he could catch up with the funeral of the old man. Under the effect of the special medicine, his wounds rapidly formed scabs. Coupled with his young recovery rate, he was able to walk freely very quickly.    

On the day of the old man's funeral, Shang Yang drove over early in the morning to pick him up. Due to the time and the inconvenience of my pregnancy, I didn't go with him. That day, Xia Yiwa accompanied me.    

After the discharge procedures were completed, the two of us began to pack up our things. While I was making my bed, I noticed a small, rather old-fashioned gift box under the pillow. Opening it, I saw that there was a small diamond ring inside.    

This... Is it an old thing? Who was he giving it to? Why under the pillow? I was surprised.    

"What is this?" Xia Yiwa stuck her head in and took the box from me. When she saw the diamond ring inside, she asked in surprise, "This is for you?"    

"Obviously not. He brought it with him. He must have forgotten to take it just now because he was too anxious." I said lightly, feeling a little bitter in my heart.    

Xia Yiwa immediately closed the box and placed it in my hands, then said to me, "My brother once had a woman that he loved who was forced to be separated by Sheng Family. I've heard about this from Rou, but Shubei, honestly, is this how you intend to continue with my brother? "    

"What's going on?" I mumbled, not understanding for a moment.    

"Don't you feel that the relationship between the two of you is very strange? Seeing that the child is about to give birth, you two seem to not be in the least bit of hurry? " Saying this, Xia Yiwa shook my hand with concern. "What happened to all of you? I can clearly sense that you guys care about each other, but why are you always so weird? "    

"I can't explain it clearly either, maybe... It's our hearts that are still tangled up in each other's. "    

"Didn't the people from Xu Family already receive their due retribution? Huang Xiaoxiang is dead, Xu Tianyi is in prison, and you want to go back to your own house.    

"Xu Changsheng is still here, and his Xu's Group is still in his hands. Unless I can recapture the Xu's Group, I don't even want to consider feelings. What's more … "Sheng Yun, you might not be interested in me. We are just making a deal. Plus, we are just consoling ourselves when we are lonely." I said lightly.    

"Shubei, other people might not understand you, but I know you even better than I know myself. If you don't care for him, you won't be in the hospital taking care of him day and night, pregnant with his child … If my brother didn't care about you, he wouldn't have let you keep your child, and he definitely wouldn't have allowed you to stay with him in the hospital. But you... "How long are you guys going to be uncomfortable like this?" As Xia Yiwa spoke, she began to worry.    

Seeing her like that, he immediately squeezed her hand in relief. "Yiwa, I know you miss me very much, and hope that I can cultivate to the best of my abilities. But I knew in my heart that although he and I were similar lovers, it was hard to be lovers. I don't know how to explain it, but if you want me to love someone now, to win his heart, I won't be able to do it. I'm not the kind of woman who loves people the most. "    

"But you love them more than anyone else, and you just avoid them. "Shubei, sometimes I really don't like your passive personality. You'll be like this, and my brother will be like this too. The two of you will always be in this cycle, unable to approach each other or to leave each other. This way, your heart will be very tired." Xia Yiwa looked at me with a frown and said, "And in the future, if he meets another woman, just like Rou, are you really willing to give it up? "Shubei, if you don't fight for it now, will you be willing?"    

Her words made my heart churn. I had never thought about it before, but when she said it, I thought about Rou's turmoil every time she appeared. It was a lie to say that I didn't care at all.    

But how? In this world, many things could be obtained through continuous hard work and hard work. It was only love.    

What if I take one step and the other takes ten thousand steps back? Or what if, when I really gave my all to him, he fell in love with someone else?    

Thinking about this, I firmly shook my head and said, "No, I would rather not fight for it than be sad in the future."    

"Shubei, you still don't understand your own heart. You think if you don't fight for it now, in the future... "You don't feel sad anymore?" Xia Yiwa shook her head helplessly, then sighed and said, "Actually, I'm the same as you."    

"Like what?" I turned my head to look at her and immediately understood what was going on. I subconsciously asked, "Are you talking about Shang Yang?"    

The corner of Xia Yiwa's mouth curled up into a faint smile. She nodded and said, "Yeah, I don't know what the nature of him and I is. We met every day and argued every day, but every time we argued, we would unconsciously fall into bed. However, no matter what, I was unwilling to admit that he was my boyfriend. He treated me … "You're becoming more and more sincere."    

"Scared, right?" I slightly sighed. "I'm afraid that I'll be disappointed once I give it up. I'm afraid that the other party won't be able to stay here for too long. I'm afraid that I'll end up being even more afraid of the end …" And I've always been thinking about one thing. "    

"What problem?" Xia Yiwa nodded and then asked me.    

"If I can afford my own life, I can afford all the consequences of it. Why would I need something as burdensome and exhausting as feelings?" I sat there and looked at Xia Yiwa and said helplessly, "People like us who have gone through a lot and have been through a lot in the workplace will always have a strong sense of risk when it comes to comparing a given investment to a repayment. "However, we can accurately calculate the risk rate and the rate of return for other investments. Only in terms of relationships, once you invest, you might end up in a bottomless pit.    

No matter how strong you are, you will yearn for mental dependence. No matter how tenacious you are in the middle of the night, you will still be lonely. Even if I am able to give myself material satisfaction, my mental … I have to admit, if there was no Shang Yang around me right now, I would probably have been empty forever. Thus, it was very clear that emotions could not be discounted. "Sometimes, Shubei wants to live a bit more in reality, but sometimes, she has to dream a bit more." Xia Yiwa looked at me and said slowly.    

"It's been a long time since we've talked like this." I couldn't help holding her hand and sighing, "Only with you can I open my heart to my confusion."    

"I know you've had a great trauma to your heart, causing you to have a great sense of distrust in people, and then my brother... He may be the same, you two are in the same boat. But Shubei, what I want to tell you is this: if you and I had been arguing over investment and returns, our friendship wouldn't have lasted so long, "Xia Yiwa said as she lowered her head and continued in a slightly lower tone," Previously, I was arguing with you because of that.    

"I know what you want to tell me, Yiwa. Thank you." I was touched and hugged her.    

She simply wanted to tell me that if I was always stingy with my feelings, then I wouldn't be able to get them. However, I still feel that there are too many obstructions between Sheng Yun and me.    

We packed our things and went back to my house, where I showed her my old house and told her about the innumerable little things that had happened in the past, and we all went back to the days when we didn't have time to talk, until in the evening, when a car horn sounded outside the door and I quickly opened it and saw Sheng Yun standing there in his smoke-gray suit with a black veil over his arms, looking pale under the setting sun. Before I could even speak, he collapsed right in front of me ….