Planned Love

0The picture was very dark, and it was clear that he was living in a very poor place. The woman in the photo looked elegant, her clothes shabby, her eyes full of worry; the girl with the pigtails beside her looked extremely beautiful, her face white. Even though she was wearing a shabby dress, she couldn't hide her pretty face, and what made my heart ache was that the girl in the photo looked exactly like Sheng Yun, just as Sheng Xidi had said!    

    

With a single look at her face, he was sure that she was his daughter!    

    

He had been searching for this woman for years. If he knew where she was, if he knew that she had given him a daughter, he would not have let her go.    

    

And I... Compared to the sacrifice this woman had made for him, the pain I had endured over the years, what did it matter?    

    

I had always thought that I was very confident in myself and had never felt inferior to myself. But this time, I didn't have any confidence in myself.    

    

Xia Yiwa took the cell phone from Sheng Ju's hand. When she saw the woman and child on the screen, she quickly deleted the photos and pointed at Sheng Xidi's nose, cursing, "I think you really deserve a beating! You think you're living too well, don't you? "If you dare to make such a name for yourself and cause trouble for Shubei, I'll f * cking teach you a lesson today and let you know just how amazing my great-aunt is!"    

    

"Yiwa!" I called out to Xia Yiwa, and I took her hand and said to her, "Don't do this, let them go. What's coming, I can hide for a while, but I can't hide for fifteen years. "    

    

With that, I calmly looked at Sheng Xidi and said, "If you think you can find me and get me to help you with a picture like this, then you're completely wrong. I won't help you, and I don't want to get involved in the matters regarding your Sheng Family either. I'm tired. We need to go home and accompany our children.    

    

"Xu Shubei!" Are you really not afraid that I'll give the photo to Sheng Yun? If you gave it to him, it would be none of your business! "You'd better think it through!" Sheng Xidi shouted at me when she saw I was leaving.    

    

I said flatly, "Whatever you want. Whatever you want. I told you already, I don't want to get involved in the matters regarding your Sheng Family. "    

    

I got straight into Xia Yiwa's car. Xia Yiwa got in quickly. She quickly closed the door and led me away from the trouble zone.    

    

My heart still ached, and the picture hovered in my mind like a lingering shadow. I know, the more heartache I feel, the more it proves that I really had feelings for Sheng Yun.    

    

Xia Yiwa turned her head to look at me from time to time as she drove. "Shubei, what are you going to do about this?" she asked. If this child really is Sheng Yun's, then your situation becomes complicated. Who exactly was this Xiaoyun? "For a woman and child to suddenly appear at this critical juncture, it's really …"    

    

"Xiaoyun was Sheng Yun's first love. She was broken up by his grandfather that year. That's why he stayed single for so many years. He's been looking for this woman. " I rubbed my temples. My head hurt.    

    

"If it's this, then Sheng Yun …" Maybe he would really cherish it even more after he found it. Especially that kid, who looks just like him. " After Xia Yiwa finished her sentence, she couldn't help but sigh. "Seriously, my brother doesn't know how to use contraception?" He only did two things to two women and made their stomachs grow big. This … "How are we going to end this?"    

    

Xia Yiwa's words made me laugh. I said, "He probably didn't expect that Xiaoyun would carry his child, much less that his mother and three elder sisters would hide Xiaoyun and that child. From the looks of it, they must have suffered a lot in the past few years. If Sheng Yun knew about this, he would definitely feel very guilty towards them. "    

    

"My brother is indeed a man with a tough mouth but a soft heart. What's more, men usually find it hard to forget about their first love." After Xia Yiwa finished speaking, she looked at me worriedly and asked, "What are you going to do next, Shubei?"    

    

"Worse comes to worse, I'll raise Zaizai by myself. I won't let Zaizai grow up by even half a step away from me." I said firmly, looking straight ahead.    

    

"Didn't my brother say that he would marry you? You have suffered so much for him, you can't possibly let go of him the moment that woman appears, right? " Xia Yiwa said indignantly when she heard me say that.    

    

"I don't know. Even if he leaves me behind, Zaizai and I can only accept him. I can't do that for the sake of the child. " I shook my head and said dejectedly.    

    

Xia Yiwa took me home. During the time we were out, it was the nanny who helped me look after Zaizai. When we got home, Tai Ziqian had come to my house at some point, and was holding Zaizai in his arms. He was patiently walking around the room with Zaizai in his arms.    

    

"Ziqian, why are you here?" I asked as I walked in.    

    

"I'm not busy today. My dad told me to come over and see if you and Zaizai needed any help. The nanny said you were out, so I accompanied Zaizai for a while." Tai Ziqian said with a smile, and then handed Zaizai to me, "This little guy has become a lot heavier now, I can't even hold one of his arms anymore."    

    

"Handsome, I didn't know you had another baby." Xia Yiwa looked at Tai Ziqian and teased.    

    

"I really like this kid. He's very obedient, not crying nor making a ruckus, and he even likes to laugh." Tai Ziqian said as he teased Zaizai, who was in my arms.    

    

I tried to hide my depression as I talked to them and told the nanny to make some food, to keep them at home for dinner.    

    

Suddenly, the sound of a doorbell rang. Xia Yiwa rushed to open the door. After a while, she came in with a bunch of roses in her arms. "Shubei, it's for flowers," she said to me.    

    

Xia Yiwa placed a large bouquet of roses on the tea table, then picked up the card on the rose and read, "Dearest, there's a meeting all night, so I'm sorry I can't accompany you. I'll send you flowers, and I hope you and Zaizai can have a good time. I'll come visit you tomorrow."    

    

It was sent by Sheng Yun. If I remember correctly, this was the first time he had given me a rose.    

    

If it hadn't been for that episode, when I received such a large bouquet of roses, I would have been unable to suppress the ecstasy in my heart. But now, not only was he not happy, he felt even more sad.    

    

"In the evening, we'll have a drink. I haven't had a drink since I was pregnant. "It's been so long, I miss it a lot." I said to Xia Yiwa and Tai Ziqian, "Yiwa, call Shang Yang, too. It's been a long time since we've been together."    

    

"Alright, if you want to drink, then I'll drink with you." Xia Yiwa hurriedly said.    

    

Tai Ziqian didn't know that I was feeling depressed. After hearing what I said, he hurriedly advised, "Shubei, your body has just recovered. It's better for you not to drink. Wait a while."    

    

"It's fine, I don't need to feed her now. It's alright." I looked at Tai Ziqian and saw that he was trying to dissuade me, so I looked at him firmly and said, "I want to drink, Ziqian. Don't stop me."    

    

Perhaps my words revealed my worries, Tai Ziqian looked at me in a daze, then nodded and no longer advised: "Ok."    

    

Soon the nanny brought a table full of dishes, and Willard brought a case of fine imported French red wine, and the nanny took the child to the nursery. The four of us sat at the table and drank together, happily.    

    

"Every year is different, every year is different." I don't know why, but as I looked at this joyous situation, a poem suddenly popped up in my mind.    

    

The television was broadcasting a variety show that had gone viral in the north and south of the river. The old faces from last year had now been replaced by new faces, and beside me, there were also many people coming and going. There were always some roads that I had to walk alone.    

    

"Shubei, what are you thinking about?" Tai Ziqian asked as he saw me fall into a daze and lightly touched my arm.    

    

"No, nothing," I snapped out of my stupor. "I just feel that life is unpredictable. If I don't go forward, I'll never know what I'll be waiting for tomorrow."    

    

"This is the pleasure of being a human," Tai Ziqian looked at me with a glimmer in his eyes, implying, "Those who leave will leave eventually, and those who stay will stay forever. "Don't be sad. Do your best and live a good life every day."    

    

"Mm, do your best." I raised my glass and clinked it with his.    

    

They all saw that my heart was heavy, and none of them tried to persuade me to drink less. I drank to my heart's content, and drank to my heart's content.    

    

The night was cool as water, and as I watched the three of them leave my house, I sat alone on the stone bench in the courtyard and stared up at the sky, feeling a sense of loss and sadness I had never felt before.    

    

Xu Shubei, this is not your style. How did you become like this? He couldn't even afford such a small thing anymore?    

    

My heart screamed a thousand times, but my heart sank deeper and deeper, as if it were being pulled down by a thousand pound stone. It made my heart panic, making my heart feel an inescapable heaviness.    

    

Was this the feeling of falling in love with someone? If loving a person means hurt and pain, then I'd rather not love, would rather not love... I lay down on the cold stone bench, and in a trance, it was as if a pair of big hands had come around my back to hug me. He moved close to my lips and just as he was about to kiss me, his voice suddenly became stern. "Xu Shubei, how can you drink without completely recovering?!"